HERE and NOW
YOU ARE THAT
I had not been a long time Seeker but an earnest one with the will and desire to know
myself.
I started my search in 1996 with a western spiritual teacher
called Robert Adams that I visited for about a year.
From far away, he looked like he was sharing similar pointers and associated
himself with Ramana Maharshi like so many.
He also like to play the holy Western
spiritual Sage like so many others and be worshipped as a special enlightened being
to be taken care of financially and physically by his
closest devotees and believers as a Jnani or Guru transmitting Grace.
This guy had Parkinson disease therefore he wasn't speaking very clearly
most of the time.
Most of his pointers were contradictory and very confusing. Paradoxically he was
pointing Seekers toward silence
and therefore away from the simple Truth and ever-present Reality and kept Seekers
deeper into confusion and into ignorance.
He wanted his disciples and devotees to believe what he say he was to be true but it
was all crap. Pretending to be a holy being, a Saint,
a enlightened Sage or Jnani, but that was all false and misleading. Just all for show
to entice the ignorant Seekers, just this and nothing else.
I now laugh to how foolish I was in believing
the false to be true, all because of ignorance.
I guess I had to start my search somewhere anyhow and even though I was been fooled
by the false
and by the greatest illusion of all, the so called special enlightened being
pretending to be transmitting holy Grace.
By understanding and seeing the false as false and the dream as a dream, it all got
me to where I am today.
Now I know that any Buddha that can be found on the Road, no matter how holy it may
appear to be, is only the greatest illusion.
Wisdom is not to worship it, not to fall for it and believe it to be true, but wisdom
is to kill it, to destroy the greatest illusion. It is all a lie.
There are no special enlightened beings or holy Sages and Buddhas, just people that
like the smell of their own farts and like to pretend to be.
I found myself two years later in 1999 spending two weeks with Ranjit
an Indian co-disciple of Nisargadatta from Bombay
that was sharing his understanding or the 'Bird's way' as he liked to call it.
Complete opposite of keeping quiet and silent.
Simply that only direct understanding was required for Freedom, no practice
of any kind was necessary at all.
Not to keep quiet or silent for Freedom, but that understanding was the short cut and
most direct way.
This was the same simple message of direct
understanding shared by Siddharameshwar to Nisargadatta,
Ranjit and many others that ended their search, to
simply remove the 'veil' of ignorance with understanding only. Nothing else.
He was a pretty old man that liked to play his part as the Indian Master to
his Indian disciples for entertainment,
seemingly very rooted in Indian traditions and even though he kept telling
everybody that only understanding was necessary for Freedom.
That understanding alone was itself the Key to Freedom. Paradoxically I
couldn't understand much about what he was saying.
One day I heard that He died also and that was the end of that.
Most of these people disciples and devotees
are still waiting for Freedom to show up some day. Good luck.
I totally disagree with these people's so called teaching and do not recommend them
to anyone. It is all false and only bondage.
Unless of course you are a Guru lover and like to blindly worship other people
believing them to be holy and special enlightened beings
and want to hold on to the pointer and foolishly worship the finger pointing at the
moon and miss the moon or the Reality completely.
If you do not want to know what is real and the Reality for yourself then you can go
on and always worship illusion.
That is always your choice.
Everybody has a story about being kept on the
Seeking path to nowhere by some holy Guru wanna be.
Wisely without holding on to any dead fingers or pointers pointing at the moon and
with the strong desire to know the Reality.
I forget all these transient spiritual people playing the holy Gurus and kept moving
on steadily toward knowing the Reality and Freedom.
Standing on my own I was strongly determined to know my true nature at all cost.
The burning desire in my heart to know myself was so strong.
After going up and down like a yo-yo for several more years,
I was still confused between silence or understanding and having no clue whatsoever
to what the Self, He or awareness was truly all about,
desperately trying to know which is the Truth that would end all paths for
Freedom. The search for my real self and strive to discover my
unchanging true nature finally ended in 2004 by having a short phone conversation
with Bob Adamson from Melbourne Australia.
Over the phone I asked Bob if he could
directly point out to me my unchanging true nature.
He asked me to look around the room where I was sitting and to ask myself if
the thought I see could see,
and then to also ask myself if the thought I hear could hear, I pondered the
question and answer no!
Then he simply stated, that is it.
I didn't understand at first what he was
talking about.
After the short conversation, I went back to my business and I simply pondered these
direct pointers he shared with me
and I finally saw, realized and understood for myself the simple Truth about the 'I',
the simple Truth about me, myself and 'I'.
That there is no individual self, there is no personal individual 'me' or an
independent entity or 'ego' present.
The dualistic concept of a 'mind' is revealed
as being a false illusory concept and disappears altogether just like a mirage of water
in the desert upon investigation is revealed to have never existed whatsoever and the
'veil' of ignorance and separation
or the false notion and illusion of duality dropped all by itself.
By having a look for myself by myself and inquiring, by questioning and
investigating for myself by myself my true Self was revealed.
It all finally clicked. It all dawned on me all by itself naturally. Investigating
myself or self-inquiry was simply seeing the false as false,
then only Oneness remains present self-revealed as the 'I'. The 'I' is the
Real-'I'-ty and the Oneness itself. The 'I' is non duality.
The simple Truth about my true nature or about the 'I' is effortlessly self-revealed
as being true consciousness.
Now 'I' know the simple Truth, that me, myself and 'I' am eternally Free. No
separation, no duality.
No dual-'I'-ty but only Real-'I'-ty. The 'I' is the imperishable eternal
Self itself.
I do not endorse any so called Guru simply because there is no such thing. The Self
is truly yourself.
God is Life itself and this consciousness is always undeniably present within your
own dwelling as plain ordinary existence.
Your own undeniable immutable existence is the Divine. God is 'I' am. Know that 'I'
am is consciousness, that is all that needs to be realized.
Look at yourself here and now. You know that you are present because you are
conscious. That is the Reality being pointed to as one's true nature.
Consciousness is one's true
nature.
Present as plain ordinary everyday awareness of being or 'I' am. That is the Reality
and destination one has never left.
The final conclusion is to forget any holy and all religious concepts, person, place
and things and look at your own self instead.
You already are the Reality or consciousness this very instant that you Seek to know,
you simply don't know and realize it.
Ignorance is the only obstacle to Freedom. Remove ignorance, that is the only 'veil'
to get rid of.
That is all that needs to be done.
Consciousness is simply being
and always present naturally with oneself as one's unchanging true nature, that is why it
is called the Reality.
To know one's ever-present true nature is very easy, no time or effort is
required, only understanding is necessary to remove ignorance.
Paradoxically people Seeking this true consciousness or one's ever-present unchanging
true nature,
do not want this Reality to be that plain, that common and that ordinary, what to do!
After all, how far away, can one's ever-present true nature be?
Closer than close of course.